isoLated corNer~

2011-01-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Dudes fucking stop raising the benchmarks so ridiculously.
Code sample and you submit a fucking fully functional IM feature AND
a fucking functional GAME?
Take just that GAME feature alone to the IT diploma and you are guranteed an A, if not distinction. Velocity, friction and all that physics stuff, you joke?

FML.
I paused drumming to focus fire on schoolwork this semester,
But i just can't beat kids who stay at home even on christmas' eve and new year's TO CODE!
Come'on get a life like seriously?

I'm just gonna survive the remainding 3 weeks for project module,
Do what i can do for my exams.
THATS IT.
Back to normal life of weekly drumming trainings and hopefully start to gig again and stuff.
And start getting myself involved in some mixing projects and stuff.
I wanna live life righttttttttttt.
NO REGRETS!

Pardon my random muse and rant.

2010-12-31T15:10:00.002+08:00

2011 Wishlist

NEEDS.

1. BB Bold 9780
In memory of my trusty 3 year old SE W960i.
Who up lorried in a freak accident.
I'm looking for a phone with good organising capabilities,
And most importantly, DURABLE!
Therefore BB Bold 9780 seems to fit the bill.

Potential Needs.

2. MB Pro 13"
My current Lenovo T61 is ever giving me problems,
Thank god for 3 years warranty but its running out this coming April.
I fear, indeed.
The regular MB White will do for me but i'm thinking about the firewire port,
Which may come in handy in future.

Wants aka (Dreaming only)

3. Longboard Setup
a. Landyachtz Switch 41" deck - $200
b. Bear grizzly 812 trucks - $75
c. Bushings - ~$10
d. Ceramic bearings - $55
e. Bolts - $5
f. Zombie Hawgs wheels - $70

Not forgetting.. safety!
g. Helmet - $50
h. Elbow/Knee Pads - $50
i. Slide gloves - $80

Total: $595
(For a freaking longboard, you kidding me??)
Guess it might not happen after all lol.
And i'm definitely not going to ride without safety gear.

So yeah FML, gotta start working and drumming more and stuff.

2010-05-31T23:04:00.004+08:00

Had a long epic week,
Did tons of photoshop and video editing.
BUT. I'm really thankful that my effort paid off,
After my presentation, my lecturer asked me for the file,
Cos he wants to show it to all the other classes!
That's like my first media related recognition lol.
That made my week man.

Vesak friday was dedicated to schoolwork and more schoolwork!
A good day burned, just like that.
But the weekends were epicly goodness, spent at AC.
Services were VERY inspiring and definitely improved my thoughts and attitude towards life.
Just something indescribable.
Mainly helped out at the SF booth,
Just jammed around on the cajon and had inpromptu performances during lunchtime.

Sunday was memorable, my first time on toy (a shaker to be exact)
And i had no idea what exactly to play and was told to move tons and run around.
It sure didn't end up pretty with a clumsy klutz prancing around hahahahh
But it sure felt gooooood.
Just weaving in the music, i swear i couldn't really rmb what i was doing,
Kind of just did it with some newfound gutso or recklessness lol.

And after the performance i felt epicly drained and my thighs were aching like a bitch lol.
But nonethless..

Whoopwhoop!

And back to today,
MONDAY BLUES.
Back to mug days and a sea of mid term tests awaits me.
More good days ahead..

And to my good friend,
"It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes happiness."
Charles Haddon Spurgeon

2010-05-22T23:13:00.003+08:00

I feel so, so tired.
A week flew past without knowing.
I don't even know what the date is daily.
Wake up, bath, eat, train ride, study, break, study, train ride, bath, eat, sleep.
Repeat.

Had a really really deep slumber yst,
Felt insanely good.
And i just wasted today away,
Movie-a-thon the entire day.
Watched like 4 movies?
In fact i'm watching Infernal Affairs 3 on chnannel U now.
Best trilogy ever.

Back to serious business tomorrow.
Tons of work to catch up.

2010-05-10T01:58:00.002+08:00

Hanoi was phenomenal.
Interesting culture, really pretty city.
Good food, lovely people and everything.
Series of interesting events and happenings.
Shall elaborate everything some time in the future instead.
Do check out the photo albums linked from my fb.

You might have noticed, you might have not.
I rarely do talk about school in my posts.
Man, but just going into the fourth week of school (tmr),
I'm already feeling rather lethargic.

But no, i have to persevere on.
I will i can i must.

And on a note, this year has been rather great for me so far.
I got to meet tons of new people,
And thankful for all my friends,
Thankful for getting chances to gig,
Thankful to catch many talented and exceptional muscians/ performers live.
More recent ones being,
Rise against, Saosin, Muse, A Vacant Affair, Inquisitive, Kentaro,
even SHINee.

Just amazing, experiencing being a fanboy.
Don't think i have talked about it before,
But i tagged along with my cousins and their friends,
Trying to stalk and catch a glimpse of SHINee at their hotel and stuff.
It was interesting, not something i will do hah.

Okay i'm not sure what else to write.
Writer's block. Hah.

But yeah, hoping for a even better year ahead.
Especially that YOG and even perhaps F1 is coming up.

2010-04-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'm a letdown.
Doubt i will be ready for hanoi.

FML.

2010-04-11T22:33:00.005+08:00

A VACANT AFFAIR (Y)
(Okay the above gif has nothing to do with it, I just like sunny to be lurking around with her sunshine smile somewhere around the page lol)

Went for drums in the evening,
It was good, Boon gave a hour and half speech,
Till like 6.30pm.

Thanks Arthur for the ride to dhoby ghaut mrt.
Everyone needs to check out his van,
Zhng-ed with turbo lol,
Spacious and beautiful interior at the back,
Super cooooool.

So anyway i reached esplanade at around 7.40,
AVA was already performing, think first or second song.
All i could mutter under my breath was, epic.
The dancing uncle was there too, grooving to their screams and growls.
AND, they brought back the ROCK in me.
So glad to have caught the song "We're not the same" live.
Wanted their t-shirt merch real bad, but i am real broke at the moment,
Oh wells.

Oh and lastly,
I'm elated to be chosen to play for YOG opening.
Thanks to those who believed in me.
Will commit to the hectic and frequent practices.

And the last of lastly,
I'm reading a book called "Tuesdays with Morris"
Reckon most of you have read it before already.
This book is the answer to lots of doubt and query i have in life.
Really good and interesting.

"
Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, "All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I'm not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I'm going to experience them as well."

"

Welcome to Sundays with Zhongsheng.

2010-04-10T13:02:00.006+08:00

Okay so i just woke up.
Yesterday was great, but not epic.

So yeah.. I won free passes to DJ Kentaro's set at Zirca.
They posted the contest on Friday 2am,
I saw and replied to the contest (out of jest) on 7am,
I was informed that i am a winner on 5.14pm.

Only then, they told me i could bring a friend,
And i have to enter before 12am.
Everything within the same day.

God, where do i find a friend out of such randomness and impromptu?

I decided not to give this a miss though,
How often in your life can you watch a DMC 2002 champion spin live?

Plus he pioneered and went to a new style of mixing nobody has ever done before.

So, like a joker, i entered like around 11.50?
Alone, wtf lol.
And what a surprise!
My favourite local DJ, Inquisitive is opening for the show.
And its great to be able to catch him mixing live.
Caught a few familiar beats from his Thriller mixtape.
But it was dead boring though, cos i have no friends, boohoo.

Kentaro came on at around 1.
Opened with a really, really sick scratch routine.
Hail and repsect like totally.
He beat juggles like eating rice.
Appreciated but did not really dig the rest of his show,
Cos he drops mainly hiphop, which i have still yet to understand.
BUT.
I REALLY LOVED how he infused ROCK into his set.
Banging my head off to the rather legendary tune from 'Seven Nation Army'

And he fucking awesomely closed the set with BURN!
Holy cow, deep purple!
It was awesome with the bass beats dropped in.

So it was 3 and i was about 21 hours awake without sleep,
And had a long day at FOC prior.
Hopped onto NR5 for an hour plus ride home.
Dropped right dead onto my bed straight, satisfied.
(Reckoned the 2 free drinks which accompanied my free pass helped alot too)

So yeah,
Solitude + 10
Exposure to music +10
Energy - 20

And i'm not going to bother to jio or organise any shit anymore, ever.
There's too much shit to be accompanied by all that.

And next up this Sunday, A Vacant Affair at esplanade.
(It's free!)
((And alone too!))

2010-04-06T00:49:00.003+08:00

My day was good.
Thanks to boss and wb for taking precious time out to accompany me to blow sea wind.
Awfully Chocolate was Awfully Awesome.

After all the ups and downs and a broken head,
I think i might still prefer a simple peasant life.

Just like right now, drinking some warm soya milk,
Enjoying the process of doing some simple mixing and beatmatching.

Kind of tired of pretending to be who i am not.

2010-03-30T17:21:00.001+08:00

2010-03-28T02:38:00.006+08:00

welcome to the world of solitude.
for it hit me that so many things you just got to do it by yourself.
instead of trying to depend on anything.
we have only one life, we have to live it.
a blink of eye and i'm turning 19 in 7 months.
feeling alot less vibe and energy nowadays.
how many more 'youthful days' do we have..
how much of my 'youth fuel' is left to empower me.
no more stopping because others are doing so.
let's bring out the passion, bring out the commitment.
let's ignore the critics, let's ignore the environment influence.
let's go all out.

i, me, myself.
we walk alone, we die alone.
but i wanna die happy.

right now i just wanna drum,
i just wanna make full use of holidays,
i just wanna try not to regret when looking back in decades.
i just wanna bring and expose my senses to all the places it have never been.
i just wanna refresh the emotions, jaded, adrenaline, euphoria, nervousness.

what if i just couldn't see one day?
what if i just couldn't walk one day?
sometimes i do wonder.

sad days are part and parcel of our daily lives,
a reflective measure of what we are lacking.

i just cant keep talking, i need to fucking work it.

2010-03-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

Hi readers (if there's any)
I would like to share a true account of a guy's experience in NS.
Which is mass shared through many online forums.
And no, this event was kept hush-hush and never publicized by the media.
I do not claim credit for any of the below posted.

Just hope he is doing well now..

"

My Last Post as an NSF...

It's 3 45am. I can't sleep. it's 18 Jan 2008. Look up at the top of the page.
Joy to the world.
I'm going to ORD. ROD to be exact.

Anyway, the past few days there had been many flashbacks of my NS days.

On the fine Jaunary morning of 2006,
the 20th 10am,
the Sun was shining, but it never was this gloomy.
I had my farewell dinner with my friends,
the previous night before.
Didn't know what was coming,
wasn't really prepared.
Took my bag and swing it behind my back.
At pasir ris interchange boarding the bus,
straight towards Tekong Ferry Terminal.
With my good friends, no family nobody else.
I sighed.

Bloody Pengiun Express,
took forever to reach the Island.
I was separated from my friends,
ushered into the back of the hall.
Told to scream and shout like a man,
to assure the parents (audience) i'm a grown man.
But my heart felt otherwise.
Entering the theater, i wasn't allowed,
to smile and to wave.
The solemn expressions of my coursemates however,
was hilarious.
We clapped at the appointed time, we took the oath.
Now we are bind to the country and land,
with our lives.
I wondered.

Loyalty to country was the first on the core values,
care for soldiers the last.
Oh how realistic, and the irony that it is even there.
I had a good lunch with my friends for the last time,
waved, smiled and goodbyed them.
They left, walking towards the terminal.
My heart yearns to follow them,
but the sgt pulled and restrain me.
And gave a good whack on our heads.
I teared.

Panic came next,
we were all rushed to collect,
our bloody boots, bags and various items.
It was chaotic, incredible scary,
but strangely fun.
Never in my life,
i heard so many vulgar words,
yelled in a single sentence.
(Self-censor the following please)
Chee bye, chao recruit,
**** your mother good bye,
I sighed again.

In the bunk I was waiting.
looking at my new found room mates.
staring , unbelievably.
Why a 40year-old man was sitting across,
only to find out he was my age.
I stared.

Down we went to shave our heads,
as the hair lands on the ground,
so did our spirit.
On the hair-missing head,
i rubbed.

Ordered to keep our home clothes,
put on the grey shirt,
black shorts,
Wondering if i'm in jail.
Or hell.
Only to realise, it's both.
I prayed.

Fang Quan the smart, Hafiz the buddy
Qing Long the dragon, Andrew the fit,
Kahlid the silent, Jia Jun the handsome,
Alan the fat, Loysius the sad-case,
Ron the monkey, manyiu fellow prayer.
I smiled.

Swinging our arms,
never coordinating,
we were screwed over and over.
Down to the cookhouse,
into the medical centre,
towards the various places,
I marched.

Betrayed by another guy,
the sgt questioned him why he laughed,
he pointed at me,
saying i made a joke.
Gary the sgt asked me to repeat,
or I had to suffer the consquences.
He made me sing.
I sang.

Life was hell much easier,
after I won him over,
with phantom of the Opera.
Never knew choir was of use.
I grinned.

"Who am I?"
Sgt Gary shouted.
"YOU ARE SGT, SGT"I replied.
"Who are you?"
"I am Chao Recruit!"
He smiled.
I pumped.

Cleaning the Rifle,
Going for Route March,
Into the Outfields,
Setting up my bloody Bahsha,
wondering if my sgt will steal my gun,
and if i should ever run.
Into the gym, onto the track,
I ran.

Camo ourselves,
prepare for war,
go touch that tree.
wanted to call,
but no battery.
eating junk food,
getting fat,
sweeping, cleaning never ends.
I yawned.

Something i must share,
Alan stinks.Real bad,
9 metres his aura,
everyone choked.
We saw him showered only twice,
in the whole BMT course.
First thing i did when i book out,
purchased medical oil.
Whenever I saw him.
I applied.

Before I got my Alvl results,
I fell into depression.
If I were to fail my exams,
at least let me die outside,
with dignity.
I didn't.

Posted out of BMT,
we threw our sgts into the air,
and the bloody PC,
was way too heavy.
Sgt Gary was thrown on to the ground,
he landed with a THUD.
Knock it down he said,
may it be the last.
I pushed.

Failed my MDC audition,
i was lost, didn't know what to do,
I thought I did very well,
but was posted to SAFAC,
as a storeman,
to guard Ammunition.
Looking at my eczema,
i knew i was in trouble.
I knew.

On the 2nd day of course,
i went to report sick with my fellow,
eczemarians, Alvin and loyisus.
the doctor looked at them,
told me to go back,
"not serious enough"
I pouted.

finish the course,
mostly by cheating.
They were openly helping us,
because nobody really needs to know,
Ammo to keep them.
I was posted to Glouchester camp with Brendan.
First saw Julian, Lingo and Cheng.
Alex, Alvin and Eric
Louis and Shiqiang.
I laughed.

Opening up the office,
doing duty, cleaning cups,
filing, typing and stoning.
The fun never ends.
It was heaven,
when there were so many breaks,
long hours of lunch.
I really had fun.
But my skin was sensitive to the,
incredible amount of dust.
Neither did Julian's hands,
his mum gave me a bottle of lotion.
i was touched.
My skin grew worse and so did my eyes,
they were red and in pain all the time,
i reported sick until people told me,
my officers were angry.
Maj Adrian especially,
did not let me have my day-off,
when i did all my duties and was entitled.
I was afraid, thus i reduced the number of reporting sick.
I requested for post-out many times,
the officers knew.
they send me Victor, claiming that he was my understudy,
but in the end, he knew more than me.
I couldnt take the stress,
the pain was overwhelming.
i went to National Eye Centre,
and the doctors told me i had glaucoma.
I guess that was the steriod eye drops,
given to cope with the dust in the office,
mind you, it's hell lot of dust in the office.
Stepping in and out of the room even made a difference.
The Branch was moving, so off with the documents
We spoilt 3 shredding machines,
trying to clear the office.
Dust was everywhere, and everybody knew.
But no, i was not excused.
I whined.

Sent for counselling,
Mr Keith was my consellor.
He made me laugh, joked around with me,
and told me to go back work.
after all, what's the point?
We cant win the system.
If you have a penis, you serve.
I told him my deepest secret,
trusting him completely.
that my family was bankrupt,
my father in debt and about loan sharks,
about my teacher threatening in school,
about my friends betraying me,
about my hopes and dreams, ambitions
and everything
He nodded, listened.
I trusted.

In December, I woke up.
Blind. Couldnt see clearly at all,
i went to my eye doctor.
He panicked, telling me that my eye pressure
was dangerously high.
Every hour was significant.
He wrote a letter to the office,
asking them to excuse me from work.
It's an emergency case,
I was so scared. I told Mr Keith.
He quitted the very same day,
made me sign papers to stop counselling,
telling me he will contact me to help me with it,
but i never heard him ever again.
I crumbled.

on Valentine's day,
I was lying on the operation table.
In physcial pain you can't imagine.
Wondering what I did wrong,
how it happened.
The doctors tried to save the better eye,
and move on to the 2nd eye 3 weeks later.
It was excruitating, to be awake,
knowing ur eyeballs are being poked.
Not brave enough to scream,
too scared to jerk and fighting all ur natural instinct,
And in all these pain i could only manage,
I gasped.

I went back to work in May.
But I kept bumping, falling down.
Tripping on everything,
bleeding and cutting myself,
the laughters of others,
the stares of strangers,
the pain of my heart and body,
i had enough.
I question my doctor,
and he told me the truth.
That I will be forever,
visually handicapped.
my world collapsed.
I cried.

At night, i wake my hand violently,
in front of my face,
hoping to see something
hoping the image will form
it never did and never will,
i was afraid of my eye pressure increasing,
i crawled to the toilet, afraid to fall down,
couldn't see.
couldn't tell my parents i was afraid,
couldn't believe this was happening.
Loyalty to country,
the price is too high.
I despaired.

I was sent to the IMH,
i couldnt control my tears.
Why was this happening?
Where did it go wrong?
What did I do?
why me?
Questions that didn't matter,
answers that never answered them.
I am alone, always will be.
It's one thing to lose ur sight at birth,
another in childhoold,
the worst just before stepping into adulthood.
Whatever's gonna happen to my family now?
Who will support them?
Am I to sell Tissue? Beg?
Let's be realistic.
Who will employ me?
What about my future?
My dreams, my hopes, my ambition.
Who will love me?
I weeped.

i was in SAVH,
Singapore Association for the visually handicapped.
the white cane pressed into my hands,
it's a slash in my heart.
Knowing that the jeffrey in my memories,
the one who loved his choir,
the one who really want to write a book
the one who loves to draw, sketched peiying's portrait,
the one who was MJ's first soloist, Mj's first gold
the one who had great times with his friends,
the one who was in chinese orchestra playing YangQin,
the one who wanted to read fantasy books of Mercedes Lackey,
the one who had a black belt in karate
the one whom a girl had written a special note to,
the one who made it into industrial design, 30 ppl out of 500
the one who had crushes in school but never had the courage,
the one who wanted to be a broadway singer,
the one who wants to repay his parents, make them happy,
the one who sacrificed all he was worth for his choir,
the one who didn't let anyone else know.
the one who was bullied in school.
the one who believed in life
I died.

In spite of everything,
I knew what I had to do.
I must get what belongs to me,
I cannot stop because of this handicap.
when i fall down, I have to eventually get up.
Lying down there, it's not going to help my suitation.
I need help in my future life,
and since SAF owes me,
i shall make an injury report,
Of course, my officers didn't want me to,
for fear of trouble,
but it is a fact they neglected me,
the MO filing my specialists letters and ask me to go back,
Did I not ask for a post-out? There were 3
Did I not tell them that I am very sensitive to dust? I did.
Be it let it be known to the Media, on the newspaper.
Bringing it to the Court.
I shall be compensated.
To the people who caused it.
I hated.

I celebrated my 21st birthday,
with the real reason as to see my friends once more.
I don't know when my sight will finally give in,
with my 15% of vision field left,
I invited all I could.
I was really touched when 50 of my friends sang me
"Happy Birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to jeffrey,
happy birthday to you."
It meant alot to me.
21st birthday.
huh, i'm really getting old.
thank you my friends,
for letting me see you once more.
I smile and cried.

Now, with the last hour before I go and collect my IC.
I am ending my National Service life with this long post.
No more free medical service,
no more shelter, no more pretense.
I am thrown out in the real world now.
How I am to survive in the challenging world.
The report will take months, even years.
I shall do what's necessary.
But what lies ahead, nobody knows.
I have to be ready.
Looking back at my 21 years,
I grew.

I sighed.
I wondered.
I teared.
I sighed again.
I stared.
I rubbed.
I smiled.
I marched.
I sang.
I grinned.
I pumped.
I ran.
I yawned.
I applied.
I didn't.
I pushed.
I knew.
I pouted.
I laughed.
I whined
I ;aughed.
I crumbled.
I gasped.
I cried.
I despaired.
I weeped.
I died.
I hated.
I smiled and cried.
I grew.

Have you?

"

2010-03-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

there are things i want to rethink and restate again
to redefine what i really want
for quite some time it is just no action talk only
and i really hope to get me moving

1. study hard
2. less chao keng and procrastination
3. commit to everything i love - music, sound, drums, skating
4. attempt to be more sociable
5. a more regular body clock
6. eat alot and having regular 3 meals a day
7. take out some time to exercise
8. give in my best to everything like i used to do
9. adhere to all the above
10. move on.

i will.

2010-03-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

Maybe this will help brighten up my blog a lil'? :>

2010-03-13T01:12:00.009+08:00

Just in case if anybody wonders where i have been to since the past 3 days..
I'm down with a couple of stitches on my head.
It's a real epic and long story, probably an silly accident.
Not to mention abrasions of everywhere kind all over my body.
Shoulders, elbows, chest, hips, CHIN.

According to the all knowing and smart doctor,
The outside air has higher prescence of bacterias and creepy stuff.
Therefore i have to stay at home to reduce the risk of infection.
FOR EIGHT DAYS..

Thanks to the good 'hill climber' samaritan, and my bagus friend.
I AM ALIVE.

And thank god for the fortunate out of the unfortunate,
All the injuries are just superficial wounds (well maybe except my busted head),
At the least no fractured or broken body parts (i hope and pray).

Oh and when i was waiting in A&E, i pressed some tissues against my head,
Then a rather cute and atas 'contemporary dancer' girl walked in to register,
Pressing a ball of shirt against her head too.
She gave a 'in the same boat lol look',
Which was pure MLIA.

And after everything, i went to the pharmacy to collect my medicine.
So while i was stoning and feeling amazed about what had just happened,
I noticed a tiny waving hand in the corner of my eye,
From a toddler with his head bandaged up totally like mine,
And his mom was pointing and giving me and his son the 'in the same boat lol look',
Yet again.
MLIA. ~ :>

In a nutshell, i realised.
Life is THIS unpredictable lol.
Life is somewhat amazing.
Made me treasure my life a little more.

And.. do so many Singaporeans hurt their head daily..?? :O

2010-03-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

I came across this on 'ancestor's blog;
Sorry but i just had to 'kope' this.
I mean it just spoke everything about how i have been feeling all these while.

"

Lollipops turn into cigarettes.
The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Mobile phones are being used in class.
Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes vodka.
Bikes become cars.
Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.
And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

And we couldn’t wait to grow up.

-Anonymous

”

2010-02-26T09:24:00.002+08:00

Woohoo i have collected my long anticipated Oh! Album! ~~
Comes with a mega poster (about 3 x 4 A4 paper size), random Star card and random Photocard. (I got a Seohyun star card and sooyoung photocard lol btw.)
Basically the MO-guy (the one who consolidated all the orders), came out from JE mrt with this hugeass box and a thick roll of posters.
And you see like twenty over guys following him down the escalator.
It caused a semi-commotion around, twenty over guys surrounding this 'peddler with his goods' at the space outside Popular JE.
So tons of kaypoh passerbys came over to take a peek and stuff.
Shipment has been delayed but still kudos to the MO-guy for organising, i mean its not easy to consolidate about 200 orders.
And there's two more collection dates, so imagine all the hassle.

I think i consider myself a fanboy lol.
Oh, oh, oh, oh ~

It's pretty sad, to think of it. :(

2010-02-25T12:33:00.001+08:00

我是個爵士鼓手
一個發了瘋的鼓手
暴雨似的聲音
能使我忘卻了憂愁

我是個爵士鼓手
一個發了狂的鼓手
閃電般的旋律
發出了雷霆的怒吼
打吧, 打吧, 打吧, 打吧
把所有煩惱趕出了心頭
唱吧, 唱吧, 唱吧, 唱吧
把一切苦悶付與歌喉 ~

2010-02-17T11:11:00.002+08:00

Sick.
From CNY eve till today.
Body just broke down totally man,
Must have been all the long days and late nights.
I have never been this sick for quite some time.

Plainly taking medicine and sleeping,
Repeat.
I have no idea why do i keep sleeping too.

Those were the days where after taking some medicine,
Sleep, directly the next day my health would be back on track.

I'M OLD.

2010-02-12T12:02:00.001+08:00

wtf my snare stand broke

2010-02-05T23:52:00.004+08:00

"Let's put a smile on that face, "

2010-02-04T14:39:00.005+08:00

Fucking, majorly awesome, big night out 2010.
Intense bouncing crowd, crazy mosh pits, loudd crowd chants,
Thousands of horns proudly raised high in the air.
3 incredibly talented and amazinggg world class acts,
Fantastic holographic lightings and everything.
Beer gotten onto my shirt, water spilled in my face.
Badass night.
You got to be there youself to experience it,
No words can describe how it feels.

Post-concert euphoria.
Fuck yeahh!!

Relieving the moments:

One of my favourite songs from the night: Time is Running Out

Encore Finale: Man with a Harmonica + Knights of Cydonia

2010-02-04T14:37:00.000+08:00

MUSE BIG NIGHT OUT 2010 SETLIST

1. Intro (We Are The Universe)
2. Uprising
3. Supermassive Black Hole
4. Map of the Problematique
5. Resistance
6. Interlude
7. Hysteria
8. Stockholm Syndrome
9. Nishe
10. United States Of Eurasia
11. Sunburn
12. Helsinki Jam (Drum & Bass Solo)
13. Undisclosed Desires
14. MK Ultra
15. Starlight
16. Time Is Running Out
17. Unnatural Selection

Encore:
18. Exogenesis: Symphony, Part 1: Overture
19. Plug In Baby
20. Man with a Harmonica
21. Knights of Cydonia

2010-01-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

I cried when i had no shoes until i met the man with no feet.

2010-01-27T00:49:00.002+08:00

Being female is so imba.
Telemarketing, i struggled to hit 8 surveys a night.
Another guy friend could only do 5 or 6.
And 8 surveys for a female is like eating rice.
Uncles always kup our phone, but listen nicely and talk cock with the girls.

Researcher also like that.
When approach stall holders they give the very wary face.
If is chio bu, confirm smile smile and can't wait to talk to them.

Service crew also like that.
'I no strength, help me do this do that.'
+ act cute tone.
I don't mind a single bit to help in anyway i can.
But god, no need for such tone of voice pleassse.

Label me a sexist,
whatever.
Unfair lah sia.

I still have to waste another two years of my life to be a slave to the nation.

2010-01-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

Jojo Mayer is teh awesomezxc.
I'm growing and exposing myself to all kinds of music like drum'n'bass and even dance because of him.
Maaaaaaaaaan.

2010-01-11T10:21:00.001+08:00

The good you find in others, is in you too.
The faults you find in others, is in you too.
After all, to recognize something you must know it.
The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.
The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.
The world around you is a reflection,
a mirror showing you the person you are.
To change the world, you must change yourself.
To blame and complain will only make matters worst.
Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.
What you see in others, shows you yourself.
See the best in others, and you will be your best.
Give to others, and you give yourself.
Appreciate beauty; and you will be beautiful.
Admire creativity; and you will be creative.
Love, and you will be loved.
Seek to understand, and you will be understood.
Listen, and your voice will be heard.
Teach, and you will learn.
Show your best face to the mirror,
and you'll be happy with the face

looking back at you.

Optimism +10

2010-01-09T04:56:00.006+08:00

Today got to be the most hectic/sian/crazy/fun/epic/lonely/unlonely/
day of 2010 to date.
Drying my hair at 5.01am as i type this.
First thing had school from 9 to 11 in the morning.

Supposedly meeting ym after school at Ion to check out uniqlo's micro fleece offer thing.
End up i shop alone around in there first,
And i bought a green and black checkered one. $19.90 only!
The material is comfy fuck, fuzzy wuzzy feeling, yet its not very thick. (Y)

Oh and quite funny, i walk past topshop sign, see topman sign.
So i walk into the topman entrance portion,
eh? All girls stuff. I backtracked my steps to make sure i am in the right shop lol.
The salesgirl near the entrance saw it and she was like, 'are you looking for topman?'
Me: -nodnod-
Salesgirl: 'Oh just go down the stairs inside'
Me: 'Oh.. ...'
Malu ttm lor, last time i enter from the lower floor, thats why today enter alr like so weird. -.-

Den nb tio fly aeroplane by ym, then by the time he finish his thing,
is quite late plus both him and i have other things to attend to.
Den nvm lo. :(
Went to makan BK and sit there use free and fast wifi (BK not using wireless@SG)
Use ebuddy, read FML, check out twitter.
But its very boringggggggggggggg.

OK hair dried.
Most exciting parts to be continued next time..
z.z

..
As continued,
Headed down to pasir ris for a skate session.
Waited for an hour at the mrt station till like 6-.-

Summary of and things learnt from the bestest skate sesion of my life to date:
1. Just skate only.
The first time i skated in such a group.
I have never skated for such a duration. (6 to near 11)
You will get tired and stop and rest,
But very soon a friend will come by and ask, 'Why never skate, just skate only.'
And everybody is skating, it motivates you alot to go and keep going.

2. New friends.
Met tons of new people, wb's classmate Pat, and Pat's friends.
Jeremy, Gay(?), Xiang Han and a few others.
And also 3 malay strangers who joined us too.
Just a very chilled thing, just skate, crap abit, share drinks.
I like the kind of feeling.
Not only that, they give good advise to newbies (us) and guide us along.

3. Skating at different spots.
Towards the second half of the session,
They decided to head to different skate spots around the area.
Mainly stairs, well of course i won't be able to do stairs but it would be good exposure and experience to watch.

Fun-highlight.
The journey to the different skate spots.
Of course we skated, but it was a different kind of fun.
Just cruising on the road together, relaxing.
I don't really know how to describe it,
But its one the the highlights of the night for me.

4. Win/Fail moments.
Went to a five-stairs spot,
God the little stranger kid was good!
Ollie-d down the stairs FIRST TRY.
Win.

Well, not so good for the others..
Esp Jeremy.
In one (and last) of his ollie 180 attempts,
Bailed with one leg on the board and another on his ankle (ouch!)
He was groaning on the floorrrr, scary sight.
Ended up with a sprained ankle and pressure cracked board. :(

5. Authoritative Figures
Prior to the 5 stairs we actually went to another spot.
But got kicked out by a random man.
Fuck it wasn't even 10pm.
He warned us to get out and not make noise cos there was a 'MP Session' a block away.
Apparently some of us didn't get the message and was still skating.
So he came over again,
"I CALL INTELIGENCE NOW EH?"
Perhaps he was trying to convey to us that he will be going towards the MP Session place to get some authoritative figures to arrest us and keep us behind bars. :(
Being good boys we succumbed and went to the 5 stairs instead.

And..
We left the 5 stairs cos someone spotted a police car driving in.
Okay we actually sprinted.
You should have taken a look at the faces of everyone at that moment.
With Jeremy trying to hop away with a limp lol.
Not exactly a cool thing but it made me feel punk and skater-ish,
So i guess its cool hahaha.

BREAK.
will update the last part titled 'my epic journey home' later. ~

"if skateboards are outlawed, only outlaws will ride skateboards"

2010-01-08T11:40:00.003+08:00

The end of 2009 was pretty epic,
for the first time in life,
I had an experience with a totally wasted & gone person.
And two other drunktards. - "i'm not drunk, i'm just very tired" x1000
Yeah i mean new year's eve is a joyous occasion,
But one always got to know your limit.

Sprawled on the ground,
Randomly reaching around to grab whoever's leg which is within range,
Speaking mumbo-jumbo,
Having no sense of whatever is going on around,
Puked all over the ground,
Rolling in a pool of puke (and probably not knowing you did),
Not cool at all man.
Especially when you are a girl.

I mean this is not directed at anyone,
Well, some may feel
'oh its such an everyday thing, why are you making a fuss or telling us things that we know'
Well fuck you sluts i'm not talking to you.
Just got to imagine your sister/future daughter/gf/best friend/insert-closest-kin-title
in such a state, you will probably understand better.
Not cool at all.

But nonethless, a very interesting countdown.
Before that, we had a makeshift bbq (aka aluminium tray + charcoal + gauze)
God i tasted the best, most juiciest, most tender, most delicious chicken breast meat in my life,
Ever.
It was just a pre-marinated piece of chicken breast from NTUC for two bucks.
Definitely a must have for future bbqs.
Thanks to Gordon Ramsay and Bear Grylls too ;)
Watching Man vs Wild and Hell's Kitchen definitely helped in one of the most interesting bbq i attended ever.

Well after bbq thats when we went to join a friend's sis and friends..
And after at least 40 rounds of zhong ji mi ma
And many shots of pure vodka..
Yeah there you have it.

PS: Man i'm having a bad start to 2010.
P/PS: My new year's resolution (had been in my mind just that i didn't list it out here)

1. Forget very bad things or rather 'thing' from the past.
2. Bulk up to 60kg (Gym of 3 times a week only pls, i'm not your mr hardcore and mr ego)
3. Practice hard and be able to play at least 10 gigs this year.
4. PLAY FOR F1 THIS YEAR.
5. Be able to skate 5 stairs, 50-50 down rails, and maybe some gaps.
6. Train up my mental strength and resistance.
7. Be able to write better.
8. Be a better friend.

P/P/S: If there could be a wishlist for me to try and earn and achieve, it would be

1. Panasonic LX-3 or Olympus EP-2
2. New water bottle
3. Maybe some nice jean(s)

That's all for this year. ~

"She is nice from far, but far from nice!" - Anonymous

2009-12-26T10:58:00.001+08:00

hates wedding LUNCHES
damn stomachache and nauseous feeling

2009-12-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

Ecp > changi village > pasir ris > bedok > ecp
Leg breaker.

Went night cycling with des, khai, qd, joel, kaixiang lol
So longgggggg since i last did any long dist/endurance cardio
But really fun, great company, superb scenary, good food, great time.
I reckon we, no matter how, clocked AT LEAST 50km on the road
(Imagine, during my NP days, during the cycling club trip, we clocked 30km from ecp to changi v and fro in less than 3 hours.
During then we paced much faster though.)

Plan was to do a food tour, our theory:
Cycle to pit stop, eat, cycle to next pit stop.
It's harmless cos what u eat will be burned off on the road to next pit stop. ~
I had wonton mee at bedok and long queueing nasi lemak at changi v,
Fengshan bak chor mee is alr closing by the time we reached there around 4am though. :(
Had macgriddles for breakfast. Hahahhaah.

But overall its not bad la, considering i spent less than 25 the entire night,
Including transport, bike rental, tons of food.
If not for the macdonalds breakfast it would be like less than 20 bucks lol.
Plus the night scenary is really good,
It's really hard to explain in words, you got to experience it yourself.

Fun, all i can describe.
Probably among one of the most tiring day and most fun day in my life.
Peace out.

2009-12-14T00:09:00.004+08:00

Training was good today,
I totally got owned on FHW.
I really had no idea of how to play but Ian insisted that i try lol.
End up obstruct and whack Cindy's hands only.
Oh and i just got to know Cindy today, is old bird who came back after A's.
Shall attempt to absorb faster and practice harder.

Dinner at Singapore Post as usual.
Shall try the famous Astons at SGP next time. ~

My day was short but i feel surprisingly drained mentally.

Can bang wall lah.
Sian.

2009-12-13T02:19:00.003+08:00

Helped out for performance at Night Safari today (saturday night)
Awed and inspired by how they played.
It is really different watching them play live.
The vibe the groove the energy.
Sick.

Arms aching from all the filming too.
But i like filming. ~
I like the feeling from a smooth panning attempt, and when the shots come out good.
And by some blur accident i brought home Boon's $1k+ camcorder -.-
I was holding on tight to my bag throughout the journey back man.
I hope i have not damaged the camcorder in anyway unintentionally and unknowingly -.-
Must quickly return to him at tmr's training -.-

I forgot what to say.
My day is supposedly good today,
But i felt otherwise.
Maybe its the fatigue, maybe its whats constantly bothering me in my mind.
Hai.

Resist resist resist.

2009-12-12T03:39:00.001+08:00

fuck i resisted for 10 days
sian.

2009-12-11T23:19:00.004+08:00

Warning: WALL OF TEXT & BORING CONTENT AHEAD.
Just an account of what happened and how i felt.

Post-performance euphoria.
Gigged at City Square Mall this evening,
For some christmas cum charity event.

The stage is small, the audience area is also small,
Just a tiny shelter, probably the size of a 5 room hdb.
Gauge of 100 and less (unenthusiasic) audiences lol.
Got close-up and hi-bye with joanna peh!
Awesome stuff, she is really pretty in person.
And she makes tons of random and cute comments lol.
Too bad didn't get photo opportunities hah.

Overall its pretty cool,
I didn't play as well as i wanted,
But still wasn't too disappointed.
Its more of the effort, could have done better but i think i did my 80%.
But still, quite a breakthrough, while im doing things like 30 to 50% all these while, not even half-heartedly.
I think i'm on my way to find back the 'drive' in life.
I have never, for these few years, worked so hard for something.

Only got to know of the pieces on weds night, and i had near zero knowledge of them.
Seeked help from yongqiang and he taught and practiced with me the entire hot summer piece in 3 hours.
Really thanks to him for the patience, time and trouble and everything.
Went home, practiced another 3 hours.
Next day morning before school, 2 hours.
I don't think i have ever worked so hard even for my exams lol.
Nonetheless will seek for further improvement.

Also, thanks to andy for coming down.
Like my first friend audience lol.
And to his friend too.
I didn't invite friends to come support cos i thought it would quite a trouble to come all the way to farrer park and watch for just 10 mins.
But yeah, he heard about it and still came down anyway so, thanks.

Side track,
I would definitely recommend the mall for gatherings and stuff.
Maybe because its a fairly new mall,
80% of the f&b (restaurants or fast food etc) are pretty much empty
Like really empty.
Imagine 3 staffs running an entire long john silvers.
Pretty cool mall overall.
Yeah there might be bangalas lurking around but not likely IN the mall.
Cos they are all at Mustafa centre. Haaaaah.

Pretty much tired alr,
Also dont know what i typing.
Haha bye.

My life is good today. ~

2009-12-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

i'm not afraid to perform

i'm afraid to disappoint
i'm afraid of how much responsibility the crew name printed on my shirt weighs
maybe i shouldn't have accepted gigs so soon, just a few months in

sequence plus hot summer in less than 36 hours (from tmr morning)
i'll try my best
my very best

starting from gathering all the gutso and confidence i have lost these two years,
i will i must i can.

2009-12-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

Time to retire my crappy 5 year old default ipod earphones,
Left side is not receiving any signal.
Nice timing, just when i happened to set my sights on the IE-10,
And wondering if i really needed it.
Need to start saving up man.

To buy list:
IE-10
Big Night Out 2010 Tix

And its rare that i want to buy anything :S
So yeah..

P/S: Life sucks.

day one

2009-11-29T01:56:00.001+08:00

i wish

2009-11-26T14:16:00.003+08:00

2009-11-25T00:26:00.007+08:00

The Janek Gwizdala Project is EPIC.

Left to right: JOJO MAYER, Oli Rockberger, Audun Waage, Janek Gwizdala

I got to witness my all time favourite drummer LIVE in action,
I got to watch an epic show,
I got an autographed poster,
I got to take photos with them,
What more can i say?

2009-11-23T12:56:00.003+08:00

"Keep on! With the force don't stop, don't stop till you get enough!"

I suck at voice-hand co-ordination. :(

Side note: Anybody want to go watch Big Night Out 2010?
"MUSE headlines (full set list)
A band who have sold over 8 million albums worldwide, sold out two nights at Wembley Stadium in London and have received 5 MTV Europe Music Awards, 4 Q Awards, 7 NME Awards and 2 Brit Awards.

SAOSIN (Support band)
Southern California quintet Saosin are one of the fastest-growing headliners in rock – earning mainstage slots on the Vans Warped Tour, selling out clubs in a flash, going out with heavyweights like AFI, Avenged Sevenfold, My Chemical Romance and Taking Back Sunday and garnering an ocean of fans who’ve downloaded their songs from MySpace over five million times – all before they’ve released a full-length album."

DATE
3 Feb 2010 Wed, 7.00pm

Doors open at 5pm

VENUE(S)
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$168, S$148, S$128, S$98

Free Standing - S$168 (PEN A)
Free Standing - S$128 (PEN B)
Free Standing, for patron 12 yrs & above only

I'm not really interested in Muse..
But i'm dying to watch Saosin.
I missed their set during their last visit in 2006..
And madness ticket prices.
But again, this sort of things is once in a lifetime.

So what should i do?
Maybe nearer to the date,
Camp on forums for last minute "i can't go" tickets? :(

What if don't have? :((
jibai..

2009-11-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

My life is good today.
It is not exceptionally wonderful but pretty good.
First stop, skating at wb's nearby mscp.
Blistering sun, a good time for some Vitamin D considering the wet season recently.
Doing the usual rolling and ollie practices, wasn't too good.
BUT. I was stoning at this corner and for some reason, scenes for skate videos started playing in my head.
THEN. Out of the blue i came to realisation that they always had their arms opened like a wing when doing tricks!
Eureka! I was literally enlightened out of fucking nowhere.
Its all in that moment, BAM! The solution just appeared in my mind.
And man, i instantaneously felt more comfortable and confident with my ollies, it opened me to a new dimension i believe.
Maybe its common sense to some but i really didn't think of that ever before.
Well, went to have chicken rice + sugarcane at the usual hawker center.

Second stop, udc training.
My life is good, as i say.
The training reignited my passion for beats.
Didn't really play much today, but got exposed to different genres and the roots and beats of the genres, as well as understanding of music itself.
Watched tons of insane video, Jojo Mayer's drum and bass mix was fucking sick.
For those interested, just do a quick youtube on him.
And i am catching him at a concert on this coming tuesday! Excitement x 10000
Couldn't quite describe all this in words man.

Third stop, L4D2 at parklane!
L4D2 is sickkkkkkkkkkkkk, super nice.
We played 4 v 4 versus.
Got owned like shit when playing as survivors but, it was fun fun fun.
Thanks for the invite, made me feel like a teenager all over again.
Those were the days man, secondary school days.
How long have it been, just chilling in a LAN shop, having so much fun and laughter from a stupid computer game.

What's life about now, academic, work, money.
And facing all the shit in life.
But today's an exception i say,
My life is good today.
(Oh and i received my ION gig pay today, ker-ching! $_$)

Okay i'm actually rather exhausted,
Don't really have an idea if what i write make sense,
Or if its interesting, whatever.
Okay i just re-read my post and, its nonsense.
-.-

BOTTOM LINE: Go play l4d2! You will really like it. ~

2009-11-20T22:16:00.006+08:00

Off for late night skating, alone.

Prolly helps with sleep and everything.
Not feeling too well in the recent cold weather.
Body ain't as healthy as i was 5 years ago.

Longing for some good breeze,
just to chill and relax.

Why so serious?

2.29am Update:
Tested out the new set up,
Bearings were rolling smooth as butter,
Hard and decent plain wheels,
Trucks were pretty loose for my liking,
But all is good after some tightening.
Overall, pretty dope.

Didn't really skate much as i was afraid of disturbing the residents nearby.
Just rolled around and tried to get use to the new set up.
And i must say i am pretty surprised and delighted that it weighed at least 25% less than the projeckt setup.

Shall go for some ollie practices tmr morning,
hope there will be improvement.
But dang i can't sleep!!

Nauseous, a stomach constantly filled with air,
Burping and more burping,
Generally feel weird.
All for the past few days.
Haven't felt like this for like, a long time.

2009-11-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

"That's all I think about, still, is time and groove."
- Jeff Porcaro (1954-1992)

2009-11-07T12:32:00.006+08:00

Good folk pop for the ears,
and i rarely listen to anything folk nor pop.

I assure its a gentle-soothing-catchy-yet-hit-you-hard-with-lyrics kind of song
Should be pleasant for most people.

And no, she is not signed to any major labels.
That is what makes her awesome, no bullshit marketing, no writing of music for money, pure good music and passion.

Check Soko out at
www.myspace.com/mysoko

2009-11-06T00:42:00.000+08:00

words for thought

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

- Niel Gaiman.

2009-10-23T00:28:00.004+08:00

First gig
@ ION Orchard Official Opening

It was a rather intriguing experience,
Fun, stress, exposure, self-reflection, laughter.
During rehearsal on thursday night, actually got a rare chance to watch Wang Lee Hom rehearse and jam.
He is pretty good live! If iirc he sang yao gun zen me le and gai shi ying xiong,

and played and sang on the piano. Niceeeeeeeeee!

Man i sweared he gave Esther a super charming smile hah.

The event day itself was hell,
A few last minute changes made to the song, when i still had problems smoothing out the sequence.
I did not play too well, i believed i could have played much better.
I had no idea what was going on but i lost concentration, in exchange for showsmanship.
Was counting the bars halfway when i blanked out,
There was i, a goner. :(

So much for an encouragement from one of the runway models.
Right on the steps before we go out on stage, we were like waiting for the cue,
I reckon this hot european lady saw me biting my lips and brows somewhat knitted,
(last minute running through of sequence in my mind)
And so she tapped me from behind, "Good luck buddy!" + :D
Me: "Thank you" + stunned + :):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
And when going down the stairs after the performance,
We made eye contact again and she went, "Great job great job" + :)
Me: "Thank you" + stunned + :):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
Can call me suaku or anything,
But i was surprised they would actually make social contact with plain commoners,
Cos all along i sterotyped them to be snobbish and proud people.
So it was really quite an insight. :x

On contrary, i felt bad for one of the dance groups.
They were all decked in really pretty costumes, full make up and everything.
The guys had really nice mohawks attached to their heads,
loud and striking and looking damn good.
Only to have their performance cancelled.
(Shouldn't elaborate on why :\) Technically, "time constraint".
But i felt that it was super unfair to them,
How much effort and time they have spent to prepare and practice to present their hard work?
All i could see backstage was their disappointed faces.
I don't know the problems and difficulties the events people were facing,
But personally i thought they could have rescheduled their performance to later.
I mean, how long is a freaking dance, just five miserable minutes?

The finale was EPIC.

Superb pyrotechnics, NOT

when they explode right in front of you.

Was thrashing around, then.. BOOMZ

Deafening blast + blinding light = instant heart-stop

I thought i was gonna die or something man.

Ended with tons and tons of beautiful confetti flying all over the place, on our heads, everywhere.

Haaaah.

Went to Wheelock BK for dinner cum supper,
Helped to load everything back to studio,
HOME SWEET HOME.

Nonetheless, thankful to all the nice people for their friendliness and patience in guiding me this cai niao along though i have only been in for a short time.
Really, thank you.

Sorry, no pics :(
Probably only a photo of my backstage pass soon lol.

In such a fatigue state,
SHOULD I STILL ATTEMPT TO run- i mean WALK the 10k tmr morning?
I would need to wake up at 5, goodness gracious. T_T
Ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

2009-10-22T09:58:00.002+08:00

Tok tok tok bom tum tum bom;

One life, one chance, give it all you got.

2009-10-18T10:04:00.003+08:00

Simple pleasures of life;

Sitting on the board,
I zoomed down the slope like a bullet train,
I cheered I shouted I roared,
A kid i was, all over again.

I stepped into the room,
A sea of unfamiliar faces engulfed me,
I picked up my sticks and spoke volume,
A joyful sessioning to the beats topped with Bailey's.

Let my absence be the best gift.

"Aren't we all to you just near lost causes?"

2009-10-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

I might be finally starting to find my direction in life,
i think.

Do i?

Live, skate, rock, mix, work, die.

Should i?

2009-10-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

aye, these few days,
out of a random moment,
on a train, or just plain stoning.
this excerpt of a song constantly repeats in my head,
i have no idea why. :\\\\

"Failure is your disease
You want my outline drawn
You are my greatest failure
Discourse your saving song"

*plays a series of ghost notes and whammy from the guitar solo in my brain preceding*
..

i must be mad.

2009-10-05T23:24:00.003+08:00

I actually typed for 20 minutes for an update of these few days,
But i cleared it all just 10 seconds ago.
Rather pointless, i realised.
Instead, let me write about something else,
Might me even pointless, i don't know.

Some lessons learnt on life,
Losing your morals can allow you to acheive things that are sky-high.
And many people are doing so, be it unconciously or otherwise.
Not that i'm any saint either,
Just that i don't believe in things like, "This is life"
"Cos everybody also like that"
Well fuck those quotes.

We are not going to live long anyway.
That's what i believe.
Not taking account of what happened in the past,
Just this year alone, check it out.
H1N1, how many lives it swallowed worldwide.
The second wave is striking and making its rounds again as of now.
Indonesia earthquake, Phillipines flood, Taiwan typhoon,
the ever-failing nuclear talks.
Damn it, what is just going on?

At the end of the day,
I have adopted a wonderful heck-care attitude towards life,
And I find that this is the best approach to life,
All you need is two words, just two simple words, thats all.
- "MY, FAULT".
After that, for all the setbacks/ grievance/ humilation/ obstacles/ etc you meet with in your entire life,
Just fucking, swallow it all down, right down to the very last bit.
Like they say, LLST, lan lan suck thumb.

For instance,
My colleague takes the wrong order but i got the scolding, so
"SORRY MY FAULT" to the customer, and SWALLOW IT ALL DOWN ONLY.

I am hungry, sleepy and blanked off all of a sudden, So..
Have a good day ahead.

2009-10-03T02:10:00.001+08:00

2009-10-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

totally owned the original version
\m/

2009-10-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

there are 1.2 million ah tiongs in singapore
if i make a china flag or merchandise to sell to each of them
for a buck each

i am a millionaire.

dreaming only.
happy ahtiong day!

2009-09-15T16:47:00.001+08:00

is there really such a place like hotel california?

2009-09-15T00:08:00.004+08:00

cai gao and si nai nai ^.^

2009-09-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

fail of the day

"that day saw a xmm using a canon 50d take pictures, then another guy holding the same camera look at her and tell his gf, that xmm dunno how to take picture still use dslr. hold also dunno how to hold. " - Nightwish_

2009-09-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
monk for my fucking life

Currently listening:
Disappear
by Anberlin

2009-09-02T21:01:00.004+08:00

can you spot me?

i kid, i kid.

2009-08-31T03:00:00.005+08:00

ANBERLIN @ Baybeats 2009

it really opened my narrow sights to what a GIG really is about,
an entire new exhilarating experience.
a fucking awesome and well-established act right in front of you.
condom balloons, empty bottles and trash flying all around.

surrounded by at least a thousand (sweaty as shit) people,
many nodding, headbanging or swaying to the beat.
(though they are the reason you get so head-blocked)
crowd surfers who fail, and damnnnnnnn.
during the climax (last song), a mosh pit almost opened just 1 metre away from me
people just started jostling and nudging and pushing and stuff
(though it kind of stopped just right before its area expanded to my row, :(( )
but i got to give some dude in front of me a push though lol
and they gave an encore song!!

only downside was head-blocks (which is what makes a gig)
and a sweaty fat bloke headbanging sideways intensely,
with his smelly sweat flying in all directions :l

nonetheless, its not only the atmostphere, its what brought the atmosphere
the band was fucking awesome, no joke. real tight, full of exploding energy
and the frontman is just, pure ownage with his vocals.
brought down the house with total feet-lifting hits,
like The Resistance, Disappear, Feel Good Drag, Paperthin Hymn and GODSPEED!!

not a tiniest bit of regret for attending,
i don't know how to describe it, though tired
but i feel fucking good and awesome now, at 3.28am in the morning lol.
\m/

sigh no pics though,
only had my gay handphone camera running low on batt

2009-08-30T16:42:00.006+08:00

if moving on is an excuse for change
i have nothing to say
a dog eat dog world indeed
one can trust no one

your dearest can fucking murder you
your foe can loan a helping hand
we deceive ourselves to be happy
we plaque our minds with things that are sad

why who where what how?
constantly running through our minds
when i was a kid i asked my mom
'someday, will my beloved wooden table die?'

i think i seek i ponder
ultimately there are no answers to our questions
at the end of the day i swear by following what you believe in
no losing of identity, no propaganda, no conforming bullshit

as usual, nothing makes sense in this post
but someone might be able to understand it
whatever the fuck,
CARPE DIEM!

"Eat, drink and make merry, for tomorrow we die"

2009-08-27T12:38:00.003+08:00

been listening to this song for a few years
on and off
den the day before calum was playing it on rock band 2
and yst in office during tea-break suddenly hear somebody playing the song
go home turn on repeat mode liao
i swear its one of the songs u should hear at least once in a lifetime

and nongfu might like to check out that sweet trumpet solo/intro lol
this song makes me sad, i have no idea why
just hits me right in there

2009-08-25T11:47:00.005+08:00

:'(

2009-08-20T09:32:00.005+08:00

manafactured pop music
plastic faces
sex sells, short shorts, happy audience (check out that shot at 3:06)
ultimately, lip synch

what else could be possibly worse?
yeah whatever, call me a hater.
just that some ppl are constantly propaganding them to me =.=

2009-08-18T20:36:00.002+08:00

3 moar days to Typecast set @ outdoor theatre
(i'm so gonna get their eps if they are selling)

12 moar days to boss' departure + baybeats 2009 (anberlin!)
well too bad i will be going alone :(

www.myspace.com/typecast
www.baybeats.com.sg/

fuck exams.

2009-08-18T14:38:00.004+08:00

masonite flooring
cool people
skinned elbows
bruised hips
a deep cut inside of my lips
first bloodshed
first kickturn
loads of fun

miniLSP ftw
12 days before it closes down :(

2009-08-16T00:38:00.002+08:00

wah lau eh
everytime work see alot of sluts
but on a thought, good what
though they will never ever make good wives
but they help improve the male staffs morale and overall atmosphere
and make fellow customers' head turn and they happy also
why not
thank you sluts

2009-08-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

happy birthday 18th wenbin!

FML.

2009-07-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

R.I.C.E = Rest, Ice, Compress, Elevate!

2009-07-28T21:41:00.001+08:00

2009-07-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

cruising along the sixth storey
my hair fluttered in the delicate winds
all my troubles seemed to go away
an elation out of sheer exhaustion engulfed me

i paused for a moment, i breathed and gazed
short low houses and pretty clouds
the train passed by in a swift motion
faraway i beamed at the kids waiting for the water slide

startled by my vibrating phone
'One Message Received', it read
my heart sunk, it seemed to be telling me
'Welcome back to cold, harsh reality :]'

my words do not rhyme
my proses don't make sense
all that i am trying to convey
is just what lies beneath the surface of my heart

2009-07-20T20:28:00.003+08:00

wish i was back to the days
joke, laugh
eat prata,
make merry

2009-07-16T22:42:00.001+08:00

simple plans for the weekend

prepare for my personal presentation
study up the java bible (thanks kok)
if can, start doing the functions for my website,
and if even better, do some flash exercises.

i think can reach task no 2 alr quite a miracle alr

more good days ahead..

2009-07-13T09:27:00.003+08:00

here i predict..
you will be ditching your colourful backpack in 4 months
they will all end up the same way your sling bags did

2009-07-12T20:40:00.005+08:00

gentle reminder (ok im just acting as if anybody reads my shit blog but just let me pretend)

the big event will be here less than 2 weeks away
again, on both friday and saturday, 24 to 25 july
free admission
i would love to go on both days
but most likely going to have work on either one =.=

lets not give a shit about swine flu
inviting everybody interested to go together
(and maybe we can catch swine flu together too!) ~

self-reminder: baybeats is 7 weeks away!
i'm so gonna release my angst and
do some kung fu flying kicks and punch random people in the face
while in the pit
and very probably end up getting beaten up for a good cause ~

2009-07-12T01:35:00.002+08:00

flash and javascript suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
im dead im dead
i no need to sleep for the next few days alr

late java assignment
personal website
comskills presentation
comskills report writing test
webapp make up test
webapp FUNCTIONS

fucking shit

2009-07-08T11:10:00.001+08:00

why is mushroom so popular at parties?

BECAUSE HE IS A FUN GUY! ~

2009-07-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

in the past i dissed change
in fact, i loathed how people change
an evolution into someone we dont know
so foreign, so distant, who is that?

then i realized, everybody is changing
everybody around, including you and me
some for the better, some not
some by alot, some by a small margin

how long can we run away from change?

is shrugging our shoulders and saying "well, that's life",
all we can do?

2009-07-07T00:14:00.006+08:00

you are what fuels my angst and demotivation
my tongue on your iced skin, frozen and wretched
it doesn't hurt anymore, just a numbing sensation
yet an intensity which goes beyond a rubberband stretch

2009-07-04T02:10:00.002+08:00

a reminiscence of that evening
the bus cruising down the familiar lanes
arriving excitedly we skipped away
an increase in pace surged within my veins

a reminiscence of that dinner
the same decor, the same ambience
fish'n'chips with a fountain of tartare
an aura of bliss rippled in abundance

a reminiscence, not, i was seated differently
so was the serving of my meal
the staffs and the company too
i drowned in an emotional struggle

a reminiscence, not, i tried walking out
countless attempts, fallen and beaten
my mind is dead, my senses are dead
but the tiny kindle in my heart goads me on to stand and fucking fight

i wish i could share, i wish you knew how i feel
sorry for not being able to phrase and speak
i try to pen my thoughts down instead
a post full of nothing but shit

2009-06-30T13:39:00.003+08:00

how does one "lose your faith" when faith is was never in one, in the first place?
how does your hypocrisy make you much "holier" than others?
on a side note, no offence to any religion, one will naturally believe in something he/she deemed as meaningful and agrees with. constant propaganda is definitely unneccesary, not to mention putting down of others just because they do not share the same belief as you. i'm not saying everybody does that, but i have met a handful, okay actually a swimmingpoolful.

what is the point in behaving like a good girl on weekends, and acting like a bitch for the other days? skipping service to go to the beach with friends, dares to put on a skimply bikini top but is afraid of church friends seeing your photos wearing that shit.
seriously, what for? to please who? god?

there ARE true, nice, good christians (like Boss), but are the 'black sheeps' really the minority? Use your own eyes to study the situation and statistics, and ask yourself, is black the new white?

2009-06-29T20:31:00.002+08:00

wants to study
wants to work
wants to skate
wants to jam
wants to join nyp ultimate
wants to join strikeforce
wants to have energizer-like energy to complete all of the above
wants to have motivation to complete all of the above
wants to have time to complete all of the above

how?

2009-06-26T10:07:00.001+08:00

the king of pop healed the world.
respect.

2009-06-26T09:11:00.010+08:00

This line up will own you ten folds!
Most importantly, as typical cheapo singaporeans,
its FREE!
I can assure you the quality of the bands despite
the free price tag.

Inviting anybody interested to go together ~
Support local music!

Just do a myspace on any of the above bands.
One of my favourite local bands on tv.

2009-06-24T18:28:00.003+08:00

a flying kick in the nuts
my eyes swell
i kid, i kid
i kid you not

2009-06-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

i love this version of apologize,
totally.

zen of both pop and rock roots

2009-06-22T22:02:00.004+08:00

i will spend the rest of my life lying on the pasture
weaving shapes out of the clouds
watching the stars shine
for once, the sky seemed so close

i won't need anyone else to lie beside me
the silhouette of my only one will never fade away
i will write a message in a bottle everyday
letting my thoughts flow and find its way

i will do whatever makes me happy
no one lives forever
we all walk alone
we all die alone

"thats why this is called
A LIFE CYCLE
literal"

2009-06-22T19:53:00.002+08:00

“Through clever and constant application of propaganda, people can be made to see paradise as hell, and also the other way around, to consider the most wretched sort of life as paradise.”

- Adolf Hitler, Mein Kampf

this is what is happening to north korea right now
brutal

i propagate myself to believe my life is fine
brutal x2

2009-06-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

i hate weekends

dont ask why when one day
you did wrong but are nv forgiven
you get words as harsh as those from your tongue right back at you

the cute red button on your phone

2009-06-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

the standards
deputy siren

epic show

nothing much more to say
oh 1 of my classmates received the call alr
but the rest hadn't
most probably is that i got kicked out,
so it seems.
haha.

tired of seeing slutty people do slutty things

whatever.
kthxbye.

2009-06-19T18:23:00.002+08:00

sup guys
back from school,
i feel accomplished finishing the closed book test,
without any notes, and right down from scratch.

i lost 85 marks out of a total 325,
but still looks good.
the only fucked up shit was,
towards the end this gold medalist came and fucking gave hints

one quarter of the ppl couldn't connect the client to the domain controller,
which is a basic but very very very important step!
not accomplishing this test means not being able to do anything at all for the back parts
which almost equates to instant fail.

so the very original results which should be, are fucked up.

anyway, there's around 30 ppl but only 22 came for the exams,
and they are selecting only 15 to continue.
there's this pro dude but everyone was surprised he chose not to come.
sigh just what's with this erratic world.
a double edged sword, this is.
in = networking pro, no life (they dedicate every entire holidays to this)
out = missed out on knowledge learned, slightly more got life.

but well,
i did my best,
let's just leave the rest up to fate.

ps. received a mail from strikeforce!
going contact the person in charge for a chat soon,
lets see how things work out.

2009-06-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

i'm tired, very tired.
leaving the house at 8 and reaching home only around 10+ or later
every single day.
i know i'm supposed to be mugging now.
but it just feels so tired and sickly.
i really need some time (like now),
just to relax and do nothing

enough is enough,
staring at either the monintor or projector screen for like 8 hours each day?
lecture practical lecture practical lecture practical
we only get to try it out,
rarely able to practice on it.
after 6, go off to discussion room to do project, until 9.

i'm starting to have phobias of keyboards, screens and anything computerish.
when i was starting up my laptop just now
my brain automatically trys to recall everything
almost bursting my head
this is crazy.

started feeling sickly yesterday,
but being the good boy i am,
still went to school.
only to feel worse.

just popped a panadol MAX
hope it works and i can study abit
plus wake up feeling fine tmr morning
and be well prepared for the final scenario test

let me finish this last stretch
no matter what the result is,
i'm sastisfied with it,
for i have put in my best effort.

2009-06-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

2009-06-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

epic dark eye circles
i think i need some of those
what do you call that?
.. yes, concealers.

heartbreak.

2009-06-13T11:23:00.003+08:00

latest infatuation,
a christian band from florida.

we wake up to a brand new day..
of boredom and solitude.

mixed feelings about wss.
i'm kinda looking forward to it as i get to touch on security so soon
plus things taught are out of the course syllabus

but they are eating up my fucking holidays :(
no rest, no catching up of school work,
no time to do holiday assignments,
no opportunities to have fun.
(i know there are weekends but i wonder if i'd be dead beat to move a limb then)

so, sigh.
more good days ahead..

2009-06-12T23:04:00.003+08:00

:(

i don't know why but for a moment just now
there's a rush of angst in me
i feel angry, i feel hateful

but tiredness kicks in and all is good, i hope.
shouldn't keep my mouse randomly clicking too much
and keep my eyes off things i shouldn't see.

all is good, at least i deceive myself.

2009-06-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

fail

2009-06-09T22:56:00.011+08:00

zhong (the other zhong) talked to me just now,
damn surprised.
still the english-beng as usual!
also forever keep talking about girls and joking around.
hahahha.
year 2 everybody rearrange and swap classes
this lucky dude same class with the reputated "chio-est girl in AE"
talk nonsense again lol

den cos fong commented, "everyday wear like chicken go school"
so the yuzhong said..

9/6/2009	11:13:28 PM	I	zhongsheng	yeah lah
9/6/2009	11:13:28 PM	I	zhongsheng	wah lao
9/6/2009	11:13:28 PM	I	zhongsheng	her legs ah
9/6/2009	11:13:29 PM	I	zhongsheng	damn rude!

rofl, it is crude but funny in a sense
especially when you imagine his tone and facial expression
when describing and talking about it in real life.

chat about other things too,
mudane life, this that not.

finally had a good laugh after submerging my head
for so long in a pool of php, apache, whats not. :\

woohoo maybe fong is coming down to find me for lunch soon!
(he lives so near like at.. yishun.. ) lol.

more good days ahead..

2009-06-09T11:52:00.000+08:00

heypi 18th bird day to nongfu!